It's been over three whole weeks since writing new content for you readers, My life has become a complete disaster in recent months due to various reasons. I've just returned home after being detained under the Mental Health act for the second occasion in 4 years.
I returned home 2 days ago from a psychiatric hospital based outside London. I had to be kept 300 miles away from my home in Cornwall being assessed by these 'professionals' who has misjudged me into thinking I am unwell...
I had unfortunately missed Christmas with my family so instead I was 5 hours away from home. Going back a few months ago I had mentioned a meltdown of mine which led to the involvement of knives and being arrested. That was back in October. Since then, I wasn't in the best of minds considering it was Christmas approaching and I was feeling overwhelmed due to the whole festive period. I had regretfully taken a small overdose due to a family argument. That wasn't the whole entire reason... I had been waiting patiently for the bail date to arrive which became tough to deal with. I was anxious and very nervous as to what might happen to me. By this point I was in A&E due to the overdose. I had been in hospital for 2 days before the day arrived of my bail hearing date which was the 11th December.
By this point, I had felt extremely regretful over my drastic actions. I knew it was a silly mistake. I dealt with it worse than what the situation was. Sometimes I do or say stupid things without thinking, It's a spare of the moment thing with me.
By now, my bail date which should have been tomorrow had been cancelled and extended to a later date due to local professionals wrongly judging the situation into thinking I wasn't mentally strong enough to attend. I had never been given the chance to have my say and if I felt I was ready to or not. They had never asked me, Instead they went through with the decision to cancel it even though I knew I was mentally stable in myself and it had just been a spare of the moment thing. I've never denied the fact that I have been needing treatment these past years however I knew I was fine in myself and mentally prepared to attend the bail hearing.
My family were extremely faithful in me that I should attend it, they knew in their instincts I was stable. I should be the first to judge myself and I knew I was fine, my family and friends knew that totally too.
TO BE CONTINUED...